Realization as Teacher

I have discovered that what used to be my favorite thing to teach - reading - is the thing I now dread planning the most. This is, therefore, very distressing. I am passionate about books, reading, literacy. In the past it is something that I have very much enjoyed planning for & teaching. When children know that you're excited about something, that excitement begins to infuse their opinions. The school where I teach expects us to use a particular template to plan our literacy block. I don't do well with being told how to do something. In my opinion, if the end result is that children are reading & doing it well with passion, then what does it matter how they got to that spot? Similarly, if I'm doing my job well, what difference the process of getting to that end? It's just so frustrating to be forced into doing something. I'm in my 9th year of teaching, I've taught over 100 children how to read, I was hired because I'm excellent at what I do, not because I'm good at conforming.